Reading

I have been reading like crazy this summer. I found a copy of last years syllabus for a class I am taking this fall and have started reading all the books on the list. I am actually reading more than I have to, but I figured it couldn't hurt and besides who knows if the syllabus will be changed. I am averaging around 3 books a week. I don't think I have read this much, ever. For the most part all the books are interesting. I am, however, skipping all the science fiction/fantasy books. I just can't get into them. I read one from the list and that was more then enough. I am nervous that the syllabus is going to be changed and one of the many (many) vampire books is going to be added to it. SO not looking forward to that happening.

So far I have liked all but two of the books, but there is an overlaying theme that really bugs me about young adult and even children's novels. The kids never seem to have good relationships with their parents. I realize that happens but I have yet to read any young adult book where the parents and child actually like each other. It makes me worried for the relationship that Blake will have with us. I realize these are just made up stories but authors get their inspiration somewhere.

Really I just need to quit worrying about Blake's future so much and start living more in the present. I just want his life to be as perfect as I can make it, I don't ever want to see him unhappy because I made a mistake that could have been prevented. I don't want him to live the kind of unhappy school years I had or have low self-esteem if I can prevent it at all. I have many other more serious worries too which is kind of crazy. If I am worrying about all of this now when he isn't even one I don't know what I will do when he is a teenager and doing a heck of a lot more then trying to figure out how to walk.

I have been trying to focus my attention on his birthday party in order to take my mind off other things. Today N and I looked for monster fabric but were unable to find any. I have two more fabric stores in town to try and one of them is Wal-mart, which I don't know if they still sell fabric and I don't really want to go there. I guess we will see what happens. I have also started his banner which is turning out very well so far.

Birthdays, Blue Eyes and Sleep

I have been trying to start planning Blake's 1st birthday party so I could get a bunch of it done before school starts up. So far the hardest part was figuring out where to have it. October is just to iffy for the weather to have it outside. But we found a place that should work. Now I just need to get the decorations and food figured out which is the fun and easy part. The not so easy part, deciding what to get him for a gift. There are so many toys I want him to have and it's really hard to narrow it down to just the very best. Thankfully we have plenty of time.

Blake isn't likely to have blue eyes for much longer. Sometimes they still look blue but they mostly look green or brown now. Although I never thought he would have blue eyes it's still said that they are changing. I liked his blue eyes but I am sure they will look good however they end up.

No one in this house is getting any sleep. Not even the dog. He can barely drag himself out of bed to go to the bathroom in the mornings. We (stupidly) tried changing Blake's formula to a regular formula which failed, and bad. So that and some more teeth have really been making him sleep poorly. We probably shouldn't have taken away his pacifier because he would really still like to have it back but hopefully one day he will learn to sleep better without it.

I haven't been able to sleep it either, which really sucks when you are woken up by a baby still. I don't know what to do to fix it but I sure hope I figure something out because I am really tired.



Trying out his big boy car seat.