To Blog or Not to Blog

I have wanted to start a blog for some time now but have always come up with some reason not to. Now with a new year and new goals in my life I figured I would give it a shot. I don't know that anyone will read it or find it entertaining but at least it gives me something to do.

So...a little about me. I am a new mother; my son Blake is just over 3 months old now. Although I have been taking care of other people's children for more then half of my life I have found the transition into parenthood to be much harder and more difficult then I ever could have imagined. I have been married to my husband Ryan for about 3 and a half years now. Our "first born" is our Puggle George Brown. He is the sweetest, most handsome dog anyone could ask for. Unfortunately he is sick at the moment and has been for well over a month now. He has to wear a cone, a shirt or coat and little sock booties just to keep him from scratching. He has been to numerous vet visits, taken many kinds of medication and completely had his diet changed and nothing has worked. We also have two cats and live in a way to small apartment/condo.

As if all that wasn't enough both Ryan and I are starting school in less then a week. He is starting his PHD program and I am starting my masters program. Unfortunately neither of our undergrad degrees did us much good and his masters degree didn't help either. I will be working full time as well as a nanny for 3 young children (plus taking my own with me). It's a huge challenge that I am not sure I am ready for but I am sure going to try. I hate to fail and I hate to give up so hopefully it will all work out.

Now for the main reason I am writing this: my new years resolutions. Last year I had two goals.

1. Loose weight or get pregnant

I found out I was pregnant on February 15, 2009 (although I knew on Valentine's day but waited for morning to test) Blake was born in October.

2. Get into Graduate School

I couldn't get the application in to start in the fall of 2009 since the deadline was the end of January 2009, so I worked on an application for Spring 2010. I actually found out I was officially accepted on Blake's birthday.

Two goals both accomplished fairly easily, now for a little more of a challenge. So this year I have two goals as well although these goals are going to be a lot harder to achieve.

1. Loose Weight (again)

2. Be Happy (with life, my family, our living situation and myself)

With a lot of time, money and effort I am sure I can achieve my first goal; the second one? I sure hope I figure something out because my life needs to change. I have some ideas and some places to start so I am hoping that leads me somewhere so in a year from now I can look back and feel confident that I have improved my happiness level.

So that's the beginning of my story...